It’s back. The tightness in my chest as I try to just breath. The tears almost constantly threatening to over-take my eyes. I have prepared my heart a million times for this, I have been through this before, but my emotions still catch me off-guard each time I think about it, every time I remember, the moment of his walking away… It doesn’t get easier each time, it doesn’t just become a way of life, or “old habit”. But I can adjust, take a deep breath, take each day one at a time, and deal with everything life throws at me while he is away being the amazing hero I am so deeply in love with.
I can be weak because my God is my strength and He never gives me more than I can handle. I can rest in Him and know everything will be ok.
Ahhh There it is, it’s back again. That peace that surpasses everything. I can breath again. I can do this, because I am never alone, God is always with me, He is my Shield and my Guide. And I can be confident in that no matter what, I will see my best friend again, no matter what happens.